The use of videos…

I choose a video for every post because somewhere in that video is a hidden message, or the way I am feeling currently.
We always say “I wish” yet really it is centuries old and never does a wish come true… fully. A wish is never clear cut, there’s always something that changes, and that wish goes sour.
I never wished on my birthday, maybe I was smart when I was younger who knows, yet I find it to be a false message. Yet the one time I did wish, I wished upon the brightest start in the sky, to the northwest. I can tell you that wish because is some insistence it did come true…. I wished that “McDreamy” (that will be his nickname) would feel the same as I did about him towards me. After work I would jump in a co-workers vehicle and drive home. Home was in the country, therefore you could see for miles all the stars. I would lay my head against the clear window and glaze at the stars until I found that star… my star which I would continue to wish upon. Yet he will never know how I feel because my morals keep me from telling him, how much I desire him.  

 

 So for two weeks straight the sky was clear and I sit there pondering, wishing and hoping he felt the same. Finally, on August 6th, after a couple of drinks, I become open. I can remember the day as it was yesterday. I smiled as did he, while asking me “What are you thinking?” with a smart reply I said quickly “Do you really want to know what I am thinking?” Not even taking a minute to ponder on it he said yes. I took a deep breath and said without looking at him yet touching his bare shoulder… “I am attracted to you”. *It’s been 4 months and know I finally told me… what was I thinking* Feeling completely foolish, he replied “I feel the same way”… OH MY there had to have been a stunned look on my face… I did not know what to say next.
As the night went on we hung out and talked an extensive amount… I could not stop smiling. He liked me too… I couldn’t believe it. That night I fell asleep with him… we laid and talked about the more common things in life,  like family and friends… and then all of a sudden while I was laying on his chest listening to him we fell asleep. I have never felt so comfortable before with a guy… usually I will not sleep a wink because I am afraid of what he might try… yet with him, I felt safe. Everything just felt so right, so perfect.

Did my wish really come true… or is there a loop hole….
To Be Continued