The Loop Hole

McDreamy and I became close…. text messaging each and every day for the rest of the summer. Yet there was a loop hole, he was already apart of a relationship… a relationship which was not new yet rather 13 years in. As you can tell there was quite the age difference between us. I will admit I knew this and hence why I did not want to express my feelings towards him, because my morals were holding me back. However, as we all know, after a couple drinks we do not really hide much and are very open with our feelings. I was head over heels for a man common law married, what was I thinking.  I tried to push him away yet I could not do it. For the first time in my life I was in love and had absolutely no control over my feelings. He was the highlight of my summer, always made me smile. I told myself I would not be that other woman… I did not want to. Of course there was the age difference which was in the back of my head, but really it’s only a number and it did not mean anything to me.

I did not want my summer to end, I did not want to go away to school… we were just becoming close, and I was learning so much about him. Everything about him intrigued me, his eyes are more unique then I have ever seen. He had captivated me with his presence… that half the time I just sit there in silence watching his every move. What happen to me always being about my sports and friends… when did guys come into the equation? And who ever thought it was be an older guy that made me have butterflies in my tummy… He is my sunshine when my skies are grey… he is my angel when I need him to safe the day… he is my best friend that I can tell anything. I thank God for being him into my life, and letting him have such an impact on my life… this I thank you!!