Good Teams Always Find A Way To Win…

Yesterday was our cross over game, against the 6th seed from the east division. We finished 3rd in our division therefore it was home court advantage for us. Even with home court advantage, we seemed one step slow in the game. At half time we were down by 4. It felt like we were just going through the motions and not playing at the level that we can be. Teammates spoke up at half time and we rallied in the second half. We came out quick and did not let up and end up winning by 10 in the end.
WE MADE IT TO PROVINCIALS!!!!
We are in the final 8… hoping to come out on top in the end. It was a great feeling to come from behind and win that game.
I am very proud of my teammates they showed heart and determination to win that game.
Just gotta keep fighting now.

Ever Feel Like Giving Up…

There are times in my life where I feel trapped, that I do not have options… Those times I would like to just curl up in bed and never leave my house until I am in better spirits. That day was yesterday for me… because I was thinking too much about what is going wrong in my life. Yet with no Internet, I just laid there watching movies with “sparky” and fell asleep again. Yet when I woke up I did not feel any better… I honestly hate those days.

I also try to measure myself up to my friends or siblings not sure why yet I do. I look at where my friends are in life and how they are ALL getting married, and seem to be settling down. That my sisters both have a significant other in their lives and seem more then happy to be with them. Then I look at my life where my significant other is “spalding” or “nike” *referring to a basketball and soccer ball* Do not think for one moment I am not enjoying my sportive life because I do, yet I just find there is no way I could juggle a guy in my life as well. With a little experience from past relationships that ended because of “spalding” or “nike… yet how do I just stop playing because “he” (whoever “he” is) wants me to…
Yes there are times where I wish I could have a guy in my life, because I want to be cuddled or be greeted when I come home from school or sports… yet then I realize that’s quite selfish of me. The only time I would see “him” would be in bed when I say good night…. my days are spent at school 8:30 until 7 sometimes later… I realize “he” would be working or in school yet my hobbies take up a significant amount of my time… Yes I do sit and think about bizarre things, not sure why though.
Thinking definitely hurts too much… therefore I think I will finish here for the night… *night*

Difficulties

So I have not written in a while… because life has me jumping through hoops. Once I get through one there is another obstacle waiting for me. I was always one of those children that slept away all my problems yet really it does not help, because those problems will always be there when I wake up… unfortunately.

I have given up my internet at home due to the fact that I am financially in a bind… I have too many expenses and not enough cash flow… due to the fact that I am a student/athlete no time to fit in a work schedule, without running myself too thin. My car has costed me an arm and a leg over this year that I have had it. I have put in almost 2 grand into it. So right now I am just trying to survive one day at a time.

Soccer has been great, I honestly can say I enjoy my team. Our first tourney we won the whole championship it was a great feeling, definitely a team effort. Basketball on the other hand has been a struggle… because we are not team orientated. It’s hard because it seems like everyone thinks they know what each other should be doing instead of focusing on their roles on the court. In addition to that it frustrating playing the game and not being coached, yet winning on talent alone. Every game and every practice I go out there with an open mind thinking things quite possibly will change, yet continue to give myself false hope.

School is going okay… yet I feel like it is a burden right now in my life to be doing homework, while I am trying to focus on life in general.  It is like a juggling act, yet I always keep dropping something… which tends to be school.  One day at a time I am trying to go about.

Life always works out in mysterious ways… I just need to have faith. 
So that is my update, and hopefully I will be able to update every day, so you can know what is going on in my crazy rollercoaster life.
*smiles*