Polluted Mind
Never a good sign when your eyes open and you realize you never made it to your bed but once again slept on the couch… What does that resemble?
Dexter has become my new favourite tv show. His mind is unbelieveable, and his disguise even better.
My alarm buzzed at 9 yet I did not leave the couch until noon. Lazy maybe, yet I would rather use the word lifeless. Again thinking things would change once I came to, however the past still lingers from last night. Do everything to push forward, but not doing a good job of it. I am falling to pieces and no one around me knows because the mask continues to be seen in society. Playing sports made me feel alive yet my college sports career is officially over. I pushed through school because I had to in order to play the following year. Unfortunately this year is different, who cares if I finish why for what reason? I long to feel alive again to feel needed. Right now all I want to is shut the lights off and sleep, sleep til society needs me. However that could take forever and I could pass through life without ever being noticed or loved. Society solution for happyness is money… I hate money whoever thought it was a horrible person along with technology. The interaction is over a computer or cell phone these days instead of knocking on your friends front door you just drop them an email or text message. Yes and I am to blame for this as well I have fallen into the corruption of society yet as you can see I long for the traditional aspect once again. I long for playing catch, for taking walks in the park, for laying with no electricity with a book or a friend conversing about life. Yet that rarely happens anymore.
What matters in life? Cars houses boats cottages… maybe to some people yet people are what matter to me, my family my friends are the utmost important part of my life… materialistic things are replaceable but family/friends are not.
